Long Time Since I've Written to You Guys...

So yeah. It has been a really super long time since I've written a journal. But I have a good reason for that, please don't get mad! I've been super upset lately, busy as heck, and kinda holed myself up for a while so I didn't wanna bother you guys with my crap when you have your own. I hate that; the whole feeling of being a burden to someone. Anyways so I've got a few poems written that I need to post, which I'll post later because I just posted a bunch of pictures that I've been meaning to post. I've found another affective way to get my emotions out when I'm upset during school. I've got a few methods I've been using lately and it really helps me. First of all I write letters. Letters to nobody in particular, just letters. Simple, to the point, all my emotions in words for me to see letters. There's quite a few of them now. Probably about 5 or 6 now. They help tremendously. I also have been drawing on my hands and such. I don't know why but when I draw on myself it just...there's something about it, and it has been benefiting me a bit. I'll just write encouraging messages to myself, or maybe I'll draw a heart. Something to help. The other method I've been using (which is odd I think but whatever) I've been literally going off into my own little world. I'll be sitting at lunch or in class and just zone out. Nothing going on around me in my mind bothers me and I'm ok. For a while at least. That method sometimes makes me feel worse though, so I try not to use it as much. I'm also really excited about Christmas coming up. My sister is coming back from college for a while!!! ONLY ONE MORE MONTH UNTIL I GET TO SEE HER AGAIN WITHOUT SKYPE!!!! I've been freaking out internally, but today the realization set in and I kinda really freaked out. I don't know what else to talk about...(well without complaining........) but I love you guys and I hope the rest of your week is great

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